today's homily

today's novena homily was interesting...
a tale told by a senior member of the church..
this statement caught my attention as it was repeated several times during the homily.
"The evil you do remains with you. The good you do comes back to you."


i find this statement very true. but ironically, things dont always go the way we want it to.
i guess the best is to stay focused and do the right things.
the best is to think, 'what would Jesus do if he were u' sorta scenario. den dat way things may not be so fully complicated!
draw strength from God. i guess only he can provide you with answers.
i think i hvnt been fervent enough in my prayers.
i need to find my way back to God and draw strength from him.
i need divine guidance and assistance.
i need to find my positivity.

what i need i dun tink i can find in human strength.
i think i need some internal healing of mind and soul.
its a wonder how i can be caught up in the whole hustle and bustle of uni life and its jus passing me by every fleeting moment.

i'm in this pt of my life tt i'm worrying abt the transition.
mayb tt's bcos i got too much free time? some may like to think tt way.
but i tink thinking helps me grow. it helps shape my mentality and ideas.
nthg is perfect. no idea is perfect. i need to figure out wads best for myself.
and i need pple to just be supportive and happy for me.
jus for a change...

i tink my life needs a change. and i can sense tt change coming soon.
april is already coming to an end.
once exams come are over, dere'll still be lots to do.
i need to start planning. i need to think.
i need to be more resourceful.
i need to be independent.
i shall remember wad i need to do and get it done.

thinking back on words of positive support and encouragement esp during poly days jus brings back so much memories.
memories of days we used to mug for stats, econs and accounting.
it was a nightmare, those subjects.
but those were some awesome times.
all those nites staying late in tp comp labs, pia-ing our projects. getting the sweetest surprises. jus seeing everyone working jus as hard as you jus helps matters. makes u wanna work harder and jus press on towards everyone's common objective - to do well.
those days of close frenships, bitching sessions and slacking.
i miss dem all.
i miss tp days. i miss the things we went thru as a cohort.
i miss seeing those familiar faces. i miss the lecturers who used to make fun of me. i miss the closeness we had wif our lecturers. i miss consultation sessions. i miss running up to the 5th floor to book them. i miss our project meetings outside the LTs.. i miss combined lecturers held in LT19.
i miss how hospi pple will make fun of grace and i.. the cuzzies.. haha.
bcos my cuzy was so popular, everyone knew i was grace's cuzy.. therefore the correlation. haha. hw cute. i remember looking forward to see grace in combined lectures. and always wondered hw it wud be like working with grace on a common project. hee. sadly, nvr got the chance.
lunches at saffron, supporting our hospi frens.. BESE lessons.. HTM was always the talk of biz sch.. haha. until dis OTHER course came along........ *ahem* =X
i always wonder hw everyone is doing.
despite bitching and politics, i still do miss everyone.

life was gd back in those days. a very fruitful 3 year journey that i'll always and forever hold very dear to my heart =)
special thanks to every single one who have been a part of that journey with me. it was indeed fate tt we became coursemates/cohort mates.
guess it didnt quite occur to us back then. but better late then never huh? =P

take care all.